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HEY, SO: I turned 30 this year and was mildly terrified, mostly from the external pressure that society cranks up on women around that time (everything around me seemed to be telling me I SHOULD be freaking out) and there was this expectation that my body was pretty much going to fall apart, that no one was going to think I was hot anymore, that my sex life was going to be as dry as the Sahara, that I was going to lose relevance in society as a woman who has never wanted to be a mom or have THAT kind of life, but who was "over the hill" physically. If I no longer had my youth, but wasn't going to transition into mom life, who was I going to be? 30's a big, scary number that just kind of looms on the horizon, like the grim reaper coming to collect your desirability. It was time to come to terms with what 30 meant, and I just decided I needed to push back. I was going to define what 30 was, not someone else. I was fairly nervous getting started with my shoot and eased into it gently (took a long shower, exfoliated, put on some nice lotion, kept things around me I loved, took my time), then it seemed to pick up speed all on its own as I went along. I remember finally shyly uploading pics onto my laptop to check them out and actually being blown away by how good I looked - it was the hugest confidence boost ever! I actually love these shots. ISM is a sort of milestone for me - it's concrete, set in stone, cold hard proof that the hot bitch in those photos is who I am at 30, and it's a big "fuck you" to what women are told to be. 30, you ain't shit, I'm not scared anymore! Thank you ISM for giving me something to look back on if I ever have a bad day with my body and need to refocus/ground myself. So far, 30's been my sexiest, most confident year yet.
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