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ELLIOT_B 

ARTISTS STATEMENT
After deciding to do the shoot and borrowing a good camera from a friend, I really procrastinated from taking my photos. I was nervous about not looking pretty enough, and about looking too masculine, or butch. But after I got into the swing of things I really started to feel my comfortable, and will be treating myself to a new camera ASAP! I wanted this experience to be an act of self-love and devotion, and it absolutely was. I've struggled with gender dysphoria, so at times my my own self-image is in stark contrast with my actual body. I felt I really connected with the confident, exhibitionist side of myself in my outdoor haircut shoot. Using a mirror in the background really helped - it was so fascinating to see parts of my body reflected back in the mirror in the background. It made me see my body from a new perspective, seeing how I might appear to others. I've always felt conflicted about my breasts - sometimes I wish I didn't have them - but there's one shot where the soap highlighted the hairs on my breast and the blue sky is above me, and I thought I looked really beautiful. You can see how happy I look with my new cut at the end! Such a happy dork! One of the fun highlights was peeing in front of the camera! I've always been able to pee standing up, and taught myself as a kid, it was really fun to be able to share that.

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ARTIST PROFILE
birthplace: Melbourne, Australia
occupation: Environmental Scientist
age: 33
height: 158cm
relationship status: Poly and in love
starsign: Scorpio
biggest passion in my life: The environment. From a young age I have always been concerned about the destruction humans wreak on it, and have dedicated my life's mission to protecting it through science
I like to listen to: All the 90's Australian and American folk music my Dad made me listen to as a kid. My Friend the Chocolate Cake, The Waifs, Archie Roach, Tiddas
I like to watch: My favourite genre of film and tele is Sci Fi and Fantasy. Some of my favourites include Ragnarok, Stranger Things, and The Fifth Element
I like to smell: I love the smell of garden roses when walking through my suburban neighbourhood
I like to taste: My favourite flavour has to be chocolate, in any form, but preferably warm and gooey, like in a home-made cake
I like to feel: I'm a very tactile person, and can't live without the feeling of another person's skin brushing against mine
favourite part of my body: My forearms and shoulders
favourite part of someone else's body: Breasts... I could bury myself in my lovers' breasts forever
Why i shot myself: Lately I've been exploring my gender expression and sexuality, which is why I chose to shoot for I Shot Myself. It's amazing how my objective view from the camera lens can sometimes differ so radically from my own internal self-image of myself. It sounds corny, but I just wanted to give myself a bit of self-love and attention.
who I'd least like to see shoot themselves: My Mum or my boss
who I'd most like to see shoot themselves: My partner...I can't wait until her shoot is up!
my website/fav website: https://onlyfans.com/u20016344
Most outrageous thing I have done: I've done a lot of outrageous things, but I did get naked while out running by the river, and almost got caught mid-pee with only my socks and shoes on
Bands I like: Bill Calahan, The Waifs, Be Good Tanyas, Tiddas
Books I like: My favourite genre of books are fantasy, self-help, or scientific books. Some favourites include Traumata, The Body Keeps Score, Digital Minimalism, Theory of Computing, Flora of Melbourne and the Obernewtyn Chronicles
Films I like: I love most sci-fi and post-apocalypse films as well as documentaries. I really enjoyed the political metaphors in Cargo. Train to Busan had me on the edge of my seat, and the documentary Gasland was really important viewing